December 25th, 2003
|01:53 pm - *powerless*|
I sit alone in the library in the Black Manor. I feel so powerless in this world. Yet I don't know why? I'm reading some interesting books I found in here just yesterday. Their about Girls my age in the 1800's... one is called Little Women, Sense and Sensibility and Pride and Prejudice. Their actually pretty good for old books. Their of course Muggle. I think that's why I like them so much.
I'm still a little bit shocked about what happen yestereday... but really It's none of my business.
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Anything Michelle Branch
December 24th, 2003
|11:35 pm - *tired*|
Hmmm, I have a lot to think about...*signs* Why should I care what Bella did, well maybe because she snogged her own cousin! Ewww... I don't care what my family thinks another more. I'm going to date Ted whether they like it or not! *laughs*
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Miss Independent
|09:50 am - The Dance|
Last night, I was at The Ministry of Magic New Years Ball. I was sitting alone watching the others dance. I got bored after awhile and decided to go looking for my sister Bellatrix. I found Sirius kissing another girl... I thought he was going out with Marlene... I walked over to Sirius, I smelt my sister's perfume. I asked him if he knew where Bellatrix was, He said he didn't know. I got curious. He told me to go away. Then I saw the most disgusting thing in my life. The other girl was Bellatrix. I think they were shagging... Sirius got off Bellatrix and walked away. Bellatrix was half naked!
I was repulsed. I fainted right there and then. I awoke to a painfully kick in my side. Bella was dressed and told me to come on. I stood up. I asked Bellatrix if she and Sirius were really ummm...yeah. She said that it was none of my business. I yelled... It was Sirius... your own blood...! She didn't seem to care. I called her a slut and a whore. She told me I was jealous... why would I be...he's my cousin! I told her that aleast I'm not a whore who does it with her own cousin. She said and I quote "At least I'm not such a whore that I go about flaunting myself to muggleborns, like your Tonks"
I had had enough, I called her a Bitch and lunged myself at her! She choked me and told me. "Don't make me do it again, I promise I won't stop this time" I said back to her. "You know what I don't care because I would died knowing that I AM right and that you are a FILTHY FUCKING WHORE!"
She let go of me and headed to the fireplace of the Three Broomsticks to go home. I pointed my wand at her and yelled "Petrificus Totalus" I watched as she fell to the ground. I went over to her and said "Get it through your thick head: I love Ted and there's nothing you can do about it."
I won this round!
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Fallen By Sarah McLachlan
December 23rd, 2003
|11:34 pm - The Dark mark|
I was reading the newspaper this morning, The Dark Mark was spotted in London. Two Pure bloods were killed. and somehow Sirius was invoded...? Hmmm? I can't believe I have to date the gorilla of a pure blood, Algernon Rookwood ewwww! Bella says I should marry someone for money or a bloodline. If I want to marry an ape I'd marry King Kong! *sighs* Oh well...
Current Mood: disappointed
December 22nd, 2003
|09:41 pm - *thinking*|
I feel like I know what it's like to die... Last Night my dear sister Bella try to kill me... everything blacked out... I saw a light at the end of a tunnel... I also thought that was a thing Muggles believed in but I don't know... it's quite weird.
Current Mood: thoughtful
|04:55 pm - one crazy night|
alot happen yesterday... Bella and Me got into a huge fight over the same thing... Muggle borns! We got into trouble by Mum. Mum knows about Ted... she wants me to stop seeing him... and start seeing Rookwood! Gross... Then Cissa, Bella and I went to Diagon Alley where we saw Sirius with Marlene. Bella got into a fight with Sirius and Sirius burned her new teddy bear! Bella was very upset and kinda took it out on me... Well she said something Ted and I rammed her into the ground and hit her over and over again... she started choking me and everything went dark... I woke up to Sirius and Marlene standing over me... Bella broke my rib... Sirius also broke Bella's arm. A healer healed us both and I tried to stay away from her. I decided to go to the Leaky Cauldron to have a butterbeer. Bella came in after me and so did Regulus... Sirius got really drunk... Bella did too. I had to take Reg and Bella home and Bella said she loved me... I think it was the fire whiskey talking...
Current Mood: good
December 21st, 2003
|05:15 pm - *worries*|
*sits in her room*
What's going to happen? I'm torn between two worlds. The world my family believes in... that muggle-borns and muggle should die just for being what they are! I personally believe that Muggle-borns are good. Like Ted Tonks. Bella says that if Voldemort comes into power muggle-lovers will be killed too. I'm suppose to choose sides, but what if I don't want to choose sides? What is going to become?
Current Mood: worried